Woot~

I'm back from my break.
Supposely a 2 days leave,
end up i took 3 days.
In total, i didnt work for 5 days.
That is, including my original off days.

I guess some ppl will envy me bah..
Not everybody will want to exchange money for breaks or leave.
I need to take a break from those ppl too.

I'm now refreshed and ready for work.
Though my beauty has not yet return, hah!
But when i think of those people i'm gonna see tm, i'm turned off.

3 months alr..
The job and stress is not so much an issue anymore.
Its more about the people.
Okay, the people are all nice but
I dont quite like the idea of peiwei joing my team.

Eversince she came, joanne always abandoned me.
Its not that i want her company so much,
i hate being left out.

Its odd with 3 person roving about.
2 will always be at front,
1 at the back.
I'm always the last one.
They chatted like no body's business,
ignoring my existence.
I hated them.

Peiwei is nice.
But i detest her.
I think she's trying to be nice so everybody will like her.
And give others a nice-ger image.
Hypocrite.

She's not so easy to be bullied,
though others kept saying she often get bullied.
I dont like her though she helped me with my online shopping, buying stuffs and running of errands.

Some people, no matter how, juz wouldnt click.

Alright, i shall talk about something happy.

Together with my family, we went back to Muar malaysia,
as dad wanted to see his hometown.
We stayed in the hotel for the first night n that was quite a wastage actually.
Due to some issues, we had to stayed in hotel.
The next 2 days, we stayed over at dad's bro house.

I was surprised when i stepped into my cousin's room.
There were fahrenheit's posters everywhere!
Didnt know she liked them so much.
since She wasnt around, so i stayed in her room.
Literally sleeping with fahrenheit watching..hah

Aunt kept tempting me by saying there's more to shop at Malacca.
So i msged my beloveds & top people to take another day off.
Off we went to shop.
Aunt is really power.
Nobody beats her when it comes to shopping,
not even 2 hrs of driving.. juz to a shopping mall to shop.

3 days of shopping, i didnt really bought a lot.
I shopped carefully.
Hah.
U can imagine that.

Its abit tough speaking to those people there.
Because i dont know malay.
They dont know english.
a lil difficult in communicating.

Anyway, thx for reading such a loong post.
To show that u care.


Lotsa of Loves~
Muack!

5011.
Hah, can try your luck .

White for purity.
Photo taken outside a temple.
The place is rather serene and soothing.


My cousin's room:




Listen to your heart, they say.
But, how true can that be?
Its never easy..
And i didnt make any effort to either.

Was talking with cass yesterday at work.
And we happened to came upon someone.
I did really thought about it
I tried to do some other thinking to distract myself.
But somehow, it still popped up inside my head.

I start wondering..
What if I accepted it right from the start,
would I be a happier person than now?
Only what ifs..

It will never be the same again.
I knew.
Same goes for friends.

Affairs of the heart.
I 'm a sucker for that.

Anyway, half an hr more i'll be leaving to malaysia.
I took 2 days leave from work.
I really need a break.
I'm done with my report.
Over & submitted.
But i feel so undone still...

Meanwhile, i shall think of wad to do with my eye rings.
Eye surgery, maybe.
It became smaller too..
I felt so ugly that i wanted to hide myself.
Its always others who get the good things.
I can only watch them.
Watched

There's nothing i can do.
I just want to sleep and eat well.
That's all.

Good lucks for your reports.

Whatever it is, it wont be me.

Juz wanna share some silly looking pics.


The 5 of us was slacking at sunflower garden. And we took lotsa pics of our passes.
And my cam kept flashing on mine. I looked like a angel.
Okay, vomit is allowed.

The clearer one..

Mine's in red and the rest in blue. Wad does that means?

Higher position of course!

Goodbye Momo~

Suddenly, those ppl coming over to T2 seemed to be so friendly. Talked and laughed..
And i thought we wldnt click..
Now what?!
Are they real?
Or they are juz looking for ppl to tok since they will be here with me ?
And ytd Brenna bf sent us home. I was shocked coz i didnt expect him to drop me right to my doorstep. I wanted to get off at mrt station..
Awkard.

And the day before, peiwei's parents sent us home.
But tis one, only till the mrt station.
I hate having to trouble others..

Everything, was taken for granted.
The things i do in work, my break time, the people..
I get to see or do them everyday.
Suddenly,
those people you used to see, isnt there anymore.
Suddenly,
there were these new faces staring back at me.
Strangers at work.
Changes.


Yesterday, Maryann and Annes cried.
Their eyes were red while walking back to ops room for the last time.
Seeing them like this.. isnt what i wanted.
I too and the rest wasnt feeling good.
I hurry myself and pack my stuffs.
Gave them a hug and left.
Cause i'm afraid i'd cry too if i stay any longer.
I see myself in them..
And i've got a preview of what i'll be like when my 3 months are up.

Braving up..
Mary was joking and bitching about the new girls and company a while ago.
She even said, to walk with chest up proud to show the company its their loss for not wanting them.
But still, couldnt hold back the tears.
Afterall, human beings are supposed to be emotional.

This morning, i took my time to do my stuffs.
Visited Wuzun's blog.
And i realised how much he valued his fans.
I thought he was faking it..
Regretted for not passing him a letter of mine.
Should have spent the time writing it than following him around..

I've thought of becoming an artiste before.
But when i see others who are so much more passionate about that,
It appears that i'm merely imaginating, or even hallocinating.
He may not have the time with his family,
but he gets to travel all round the world.
That's why i'm here in tourism..
In the mean time, shall treat him as touring on my behalf then.
Trying all the food and meeting new people..

All the best to whatever you do.

Woot~

I'm back from my break.
Supposely a 2 days leave,
end up i took 3 days.
In total, i didnt work for 5 days.
That is, including my original off days.

I guess some ppl will envy me bah..
Not everybody will want to exchange money for breaks or leave.
I need to take a break from those ppl too.

I'm now refreshed and ready for work.
Though my beauty has not yet return, hah!
But when i think of those people i'm gonna see tm, i'm turned off.

3 months alr..
The job and stress is not so much an issue anymore.
Its more about the people.
Okay, the people are all nice but
I dont quite like the idea of peiwei joing my team.

Eversince she came, joanne always abandoned me.
Its not that i want her company so much,
i hate being left out.

Its odd with 3 person roving about.
2 will always be at front,
1 at the back.
I'm always the last one.
They chatted like no body's business,
ignoring my existence.
I hated them.

Peiwei is nice.
But i detest her.
I think she's trying to be nice so everybody will like her.
And give others a nice-ger image.
Hypocrite.

She's not so easy to be bullied,
though others kept saying she often get bullied.
I dont like her though she helped me with my online shopping, buying stuffs and running of errands.

Some people, no matter how, juz wouldnt click.

Alright, i shall talk about something happy.

Together with my family, we went back to Muar malaysia,
as dad wanted to see his hometown.
We stayed in the hotel for the first night n that was quite a wastage actually.
Due to some issues, we had to stayed in hotel.
The next 2 days, we stayed over at dad's bro house.

I was surprised when i stepped into my cousin's room.
There were fahrenheit's posters everywhere!
Didnt know she liked them so much.
since She wasnt around, so i stayed in her room.
Literally sleeping with fahrenheit watching..hah

Aunt kept tempting me by saying there's more to shop at Malacca.
So i msged my beloveds & top people to take another day off.
Off we went to shop.
Aunt is really power.
Nobody beats her when it comes to shopping,
not even 2 hrs of driving.. juz to a shopping mall to shop.

3 days of shopping, i didnt really bought a lot.
I shopped carefully.
Hah.
U can imagine that.

Its abit tough speaking to those people there.
Because i dont know malay.
They dont know english.
a lil difficult in communicating.

Anyway, thx for reading such a loong post.
To show that u care.


Lotsa of Loves~
Muack!

5011.
Hah, can try your luck .

White for purity.
Photo taken outside a temple.
The place is rather serene and soothing.


My cousin's room:




Listen to your heart, they say.
But, how true can that be?
Its never easy..
And i didnt make any effort to either.

Was talking with cass yesterday at work.
And we happened to came upon someone.
I did really thought about it
I tried to do some other thinking to distract myself.
But somehow, it still popped up inside my head.

I start wondering..
What if I accepted it right from the start,
would I be a happier person than now?
Only what ifs..

It will never be the same again.
I knew.
Same goes for friends.

Affairs of the heart.
I 'm a sucker for that.

Anyway, half an hr more i'll be leaving to malaysia.
I took 2 days leave from work.
I really need a break.
I'm done with my report.
Over & submitted.
But i feel so undone still...

Meanwhile, i shall think of wad to do with my eye rings.
Eye surgery, maybe.
It became smaller too..
I felt so ugly that i wanted to hide myself.
Its always others who get the good things.
I can only watch them.
Watched

There's nothing i can do.
I just want to sleep and eat well.
That's all.

Good lucks for your reports.

Whatever it is, it wont be me.

Juz wanna share some silly looking pics.


The 5 of us was slacking at sunflower garden. And we took lotsa pics of our passes.
And my cam kept flashing on mine. I looked like a angel.
Okay, vomit is allowed.

The clearer one..

Mine's in red and the rest in blue. Wad does that means?

Higher position of course!

Goodbye Momo~

Suddenly, those ppl coming over to T2 seemed to be so friendly. Talked and laughed..
And i thought we wldnt click..
Now what?!
Are they real?
Or they are juz looking for ppl to tok since they will be here with me ?
And ytd Brenna bf sent us home. I was shocked coz i didnt expect him to drop me right to my doorstep. I wanted to get off at mrt station..
Awkard.

And the day before, peiwei's parents sent us home.
But tis one, only till the mrt station.
I hate having to trouble others..

Everything, was taken for granted.
The things i do in work, my break time, the people..
I get to see or do them everyday.
Suddenly,
those people you used to see, isnt there anymore.
Suddenly,
there were these new faces staring back at me.
Strangers at work.
Changes.


Yesterday, Maryann and Annes cried.
Their eyes were red while walking back to ops room for the last time.
Seeing them like this.. isnt what i wanted.
I too and the rest wasnt feeling good.
I hurry myself and pack my stuffs.
Gave them a hug and left.
Cause i'm afraid i'd cry too if i stay any longer.
I see myself in them..
And i've got a preview of what i'll be like when my 3 months are up.

Braving up..
Mary was joking and bitching about the new girls and company a while ago.
She even said, to walk with chest up proud to show the company its their loss for not wanting them.
But still, couldnt hold back the tears.
Afterall, human beings are supposed to be emotional.

This morning, i took my time to do my stuffs.
Visited Wuzun's blog.
And i realised how much he valued his fans.
I thought he was faking it..
Regretted for not passing him a letter of mine.
Should have spent the time writing it than following him around..

I've thought of becoming an artiste before.
But when i see others who are so much more passionate about that,
It appears that i'm merely imaginating, or even hallocinating.
He may not have the time with his family,
but he gets to travel all round the world.
That's why i'm here in tourism..
In the mean time, shall treat him as touring on my behalf then.
Trying all the food and meeting new people..

All the best to whatever you do.

Jean L
26 sept 1987