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2010-02-12T19:00:00.000-08:00

Sometimes all those travelling doesnt seems so worth it afterall.
travel all way down juz for onli 2 hours den go home..
Most of the time is spent alone.

I'm in love with someone,
but i'm still alone.

2010

2010-01-17T11:00:00.000-08:00

My first post of the year.

I found my love in 2009, which is something i didnt expect..
And i wonder who else reads this blog nowadays..

Well, at times its better off single n alone..
Cause being in relationship can be a real hassle.
Now i dont dare to look into his facebook alr..
Incase i see sth else again..

I'm happy for whatever he does for me,
which makes me feels like a princess..
makes me feels loved and treasured.
But of course it came with a price..
And i thought we were really through that time,
makes me so upset.

I realized too... that i didnt have much frens
Apart from some, the rest i dont contact alr..
Which makes me jealous whenever his frens look for him.
My whole life cant be bout him..
I need frens.. seriously.

Nov

2009-11-09T20:00:00.000-08:00

Nowadays still got who update blog?
Lol..

5 more days to his birthday.
It seems so good to have a boyfriend.
Somebody there to care for u when u r sick, down or ...desperate?
hah..

Something followed me that day when i went to his house.
And i mean dirty things..
It makes me feels so uneasy throughout n i tink i freaked out.
I was really scared.
It seems like theres 3 person in the room.
I SWORE that i wont wear all black again.
This is my first time that happens..

Guess i'm really down on luck..
N today i'm on mc leave.
Fall sick n those fever stuffs..
N somebody asked me go see psychology loh..

Tink i wont go to his house for awhile

2009-09-17T19:57:00.000-07:00

Seems like he's working on my birthday.
Oh great, how wonderful.
I am so HAPPY.

Dont even know why i took leave for.

Heels

2009-09-15T16:03:00.000-07:00

Heels, wedges or wadever..

to the hell with it man.

I sprained my feet on my way to work,

and now i have to limp.

And dear push me around in wheelchair at TTSH..

First time i reli sat in it, wow.

Super suay.

Lucky the Xrays scanning prove fine.

Dad mum brought me to some TCM at jurong dere..

and the stupid physician was damn fierce.

Should have see the way he twisted man, 90 degree angle turn.

Oh my God~

I dont even dare to bend the toes..

He said the bones were dislocated n twisted them back.

Thinking of how i'm gonna work on thur,

since i'm a OPERATIONS crew.

Today's 5th mth anniversary.

Wad a surprise man...

Lucky he was there for me all the time,

coz bukit panjang to boonkeng isnt that near after all.

I really appreciate that.

Now i'm thinking twice bout sun's bdae celebrations alr..

Dunno can walk anot..

Will c first, hopefully by that time can run le.

Yes

2009-08-30T12:08:00.000-07:00

Yes,Just one msg is enough to drive me crazy.
Yes,I'm a jealous girl n I cant tolerate a single shit from that bitch.
Someday, i really gonna walk up and slap her hard.
Dont make me do that.

Cause some shameless ppl juz cant keep their distance away
and they dont understand the meaning of alr ATTACHED.
Lucky vani is there to cheer me up.
Love without trust, is nothing.

August

2009-08-11T14:07:00.000-07:00

My first post in august.
Suddenly, i dont know wad to blog bout..

Oh wells, went over to his house yesterday.
Hmm.. he cooked pasta, which is quite easy.
But then i find the pasta hard though..
Anyway, i do appreciate that,
consider that he didnt wash plates at home de.
And he cleaned all in the end. Good!

恋爱能让人成长.
Indeed, it helps u to be a better person.
Depends on the way u looked at it too..
With girls, u've to be really patient.
U need to convince them into wad u believed,
but u've got to listen what she has to say too,
cause its not just u alone anymore..

He has been sweet n nice..
But i dont liked that he smoked.
Seems like i cant accept the fact that my boyfriend smokes.
U knew when u're young, u'd imagine ur bf to be like those prince charming,
n everythings perfect with them.
Its disappointing though..

That aside, the ghost month is here soon.
And i haven watch jack neo movie yet..
I'm always scared to go for work at morning.
Cause its so damn quiet n it freaks me out,
especially when taking the lift, alone.

Didnt know why yesterday when i got home late,
i heard dogs barking.
Not those barking u usually hear, is those crying heart wrenching kind of barking.
It came on in the middle of night n
could hear it so loud & clear, as if the dog's right outside house door.
Decided to slp immediately after that..

Then this afternoon, mum asked if i hear dogs' bark ytd..
She heard it too.. n thought is my sis crying.
So she went to her room n check out den realized is not her.
But the sound, i meant the crying barking is esp loud from their room.
Seems like it came from the room's direction from the outside.
Lucky i didnt looked out from their window..

I swear i'm gonna sleep early tonight.

Getting used to

2009-07-01T19:02:00.000-07:00

Its all bout getting used to..
Be it changes at work,
the roster, the people and of course him.

And then i'll have to balance myself,
make some changes, so that i can fit in.
I'm careful about going at it,
so as not to lose myself in it.
I still want to be myself,
able to smile,
or talk;
and stay happy.

Jackqline told me something today,
which i think is quite shocking.
And it occupied my mind for almost a whole day.
Didnt expect somebody to say something like tat, cos i didnt know he would be like that.
But i'll have promised her not to tell anyone,
so i wont.

I find it kind of weird whenever i talk to other girls.
Its like, theres so many pretty girls out there and they arent attached.
They are pretty and are those types that guys will definately like..
And i dont know wads so special or good about me.
Then they will ask, "hows ur boyfriend?"
and i'll go like,
'Oh! I almost forget that i have a boyfriend~'
But of course i didnt say that.

He is always calling,
almost everyday.
So suddenly when the calls stopped,
i cant help but wondering..
whats wrong or what happened.
I'd thought my handphone was spoilt.
Sometimes i still have some difficulties in trusting him.
And he does, find me hard to guess.
Again, its all about getting used to..

So please, dont call me too much.
I'm afraid i cant get used to if the calls stopped.

Enough

2009-06-25T12:39:00.000-07:00

Maybe one is not enough.
So, there were others.

Theres a saying which says;
If theres a first time, there will be a second,
so will a third.
And then again and again.

No matter how much u loved a person,
theres a limit to how much one can take.

smoking

2009-06-23T12:43:00.000-07:00

Becoz of these trainings, i cant meet up with the girls..
felt so bad bout it.
And i'm really tired.
Seems like no matter how much i sleep, i still feel tired.
Today is the last day of training & the seventh day i've worked.
I am not going anywhere tml and the day after.
I need my rest.

There's something i ve been wondering..
Is it possible to be in love with two persons at the same time?
Isnt that bad?
but how does it feels actually..?

Anyway, baby did something to me yesterday.
I knew it wasnt on purpose,
but can u please be more gentle next time;
coz i'm a girl afterall.

Infact, i prefer his dad to him.
He's so much better..
I can see from him how much he dotes on his son,
but if,
if he knew all while his son had been smoking or things like that;
i think he will faint.
He would be upset and maybe disappointed.
Would you bear to hurt someone u loved so much?

I mean, of cos frens will say wads the big deal n stuffs;
cause they dont know anything.
They will ask u to join n have fun.
So you joined and have fun.
And forgot all bout other people.

He told me he's cutting down,
and i do believe him.
I dont expect him to really totally quit whether its for me or for himself.
I just dont like people to do things behind others' back.
And i rather u do it infront of them..

I'm not against smoking or him,
I'm just thinking how disappointed his dad might be if he knew all this.. or maybe he wouldnt.
I'm just saying how i feel thats all.
And i feel sad whenever i think of this.
His dad does smoke n whenever he does ,
I feel like telling him; "your son does that too.."

See.. Thats the effect you may have on your child,
without you knowing it.

Before you do anything, think of others please.

For You

2009-06-19T18:14:00.000-07:00

Somebody dont no how to read blog.
Isnt it funny..?
To think the person actually lived 20 yrs..

Today's trainin was okay,
and i was asked to dance again.
Omg.
Its like, this is the second time of the month i'm asked to dance infront of so many ppl.
wad the hell.

Sometimes it the little actions that surprised me.
Something thats unexpected and comes out naturally;
showed that you actually cared and suddenly,
everything was worth the effort.
Action speaks louder than any other things else.
But before you decide on wad to do,
think of how the person will react first.

When you think too much,
its when you start imaginating things, assuming thats wad it is when it wasnt.
Before you even get to speak or ask, you turned to walk away.
How sad could that be..
Whats real important is how the other person thinks or feels.
Seek her/his opinion before u decide on anything else.

Everything was going quite well,
be it work, friends or love.
except for money... which is never enough.
but it had been long since i last catch up with the gers
and i reli do miss them.

It amazing how idiot a person can be..
to be specific, i mean stupid.
Stupid.

Stupid for being so honest.
Stupid for falling for someone so ordinary.
Stupid for not knowing what i actually meant.
Stupid for believing whatever i said.
Stupid for doing whatever i asked.

I was even stupider myself, to fall for such a stupid.

Happy now?

Hello

2009-05-19T12:40:00.000-07:00

Demons & Angels is really nice!
seriously dont mind watching second time~
Dere's so many churches in rome..
is like within every 5km, dere's one.
And Tom hanks's reli a gd actor, plus he's funny.

So sad tat couldnt celebrate sook's bdae with her..haiz
22nd alr..Dont spend it alone agn next year ah~

Aiyo...tink i shouldnt have dye my hair brown.
Regret le..how?
Black hair seems to look younger leh..
If only can dye half black half brown..
Den u will c my left side black den right side brown..cool rite?!

Anyway, i dont know i'm cursed or wad..
It can gets abit freaky whenever i thought of it.
u see.. I'm surrounded by ppl who are scorpios.
At home already got two..
And so do my poly mates.
Plus, my baby also..
Which is kind of weird though.

Cause i'm not into football,
so i dont understand y one can stay up tat late to watch the 90 mins thing even when it means 4 hrs of slp.
Guys are guys...

Night of the museum gonna b out soon~
the trailer is funny loh..

Feel so sleepy now..
somemore juz wakeup 1 hr only.
So nan de today off, can blog still...
Later still muz meet him, tml still got work.
morning shift.
Even worse..wakeup at 5am leh.
Bloody hell.
Aiya.. not first time le lah.
Wad to do, i need money mah..
after complain still muz work.

ugly insect bites all over my legs, stupid baby.

Honeymoon

2009-05-07T15:57:00.000-07:00

I guess its reli not easy for two to be together.
It takes a lot of trust, understanding & communication
so do respect & forgive..
Love alone isn't enough.

I think i still have alot to learn
And i juz told him how i felt yesterday.
So now we are back together again.
It IS normal for couple to quarrel right?

When the honeymoon is over, the real thing sets in.
And once u re into it, it can be hard to get rid of it.

Anyway, i do miss the airport env alot
so i went back n have a look.
I saw the CYAs n this time their vests are no longer in red but yellow.
Which looks so much better..seriously.

Miss my gers too..
Tink should meet up soon n gossip~
suddenly so many ppl asked bout my blog..
hah, even i myself tink its abit drama loh..

Boyfriend only mah..
is it a big thing?

Third Party

2009-04-28T10:21:00.000-07:00

There is a third party in our relationship.
though he said there wasnt anything between them.
And this is the second time i felt insecure.

To him, its nothing.
But to me, it meant something..
I really dont like to see the two of them together,
and there were very close.

Either one has to back out,
and i'm glad i did.
I just told him yesterday,
it seemed cruel; but that was necessary.
I dont like to share things.

I had tarot reading back in KL few months ago.
Indeed, wad she said came true.
Intially, i didnt believe in the cards..
and she warned me bout havin a third party,
and that how the guy couldnt give me wad i want.
But she suggested to give the relationship a try..

I'm like getting my into trouble for nothing.
And i realized, i prefer to be alone & single.
How ironic;
to think i wanted so much to be attached.

Seriously, I'm not in a very good mood now.

Girlfriend Boyfriend Girlfriend Boyfriend

2009-04-17T15:00:00.000-07:00

Okay girls!
I've got myself a boyfriend!

Oh my god~
felt so unreal..
so sudden,
to think we actually hardly talk in the past.

See him almost everyday,
and i reli cabbed till i die man.
Lucky his dad a taxi driver, n ooh i LOVE his dad~
He's cuter den his son.

Oh wells..
But he smoked way too much,
have to chop off his hand.

Haiz..
But baby works at elsewhere nw
n his sch startin soon..
hard to see him around at work le.

Its only 14 hours n i miss u alr~

stucked

2009-04-12T14:09:00.000-07:00

I'm confused.
I dont no wad to choose,
I have no answer.

But it seems real tempting,
n he's hard to resist.
He had popped the question,
n now is left with me n my decision.

It came so sudden,
before i could even think wad actually happened.
Yesh, i'm a coward.

And my mind's in total blank now.
I couldnt think,
and i cant do anything at the moment.

All i remember is him & the question.
Sorry girls if i didnt tell u all.
Cos i wasnt even sure of it myself.
But if u do read my blog,
u'll noe alot more.

So, READ my blog.

Hooked

2009-03-18T10:27:00.000-07:00

Getting hooked.. is easy.

getting hooked to stuffs like issues, dramas, idols or songs are fine.
But getting hooked to somebody, its juz not right.

Right now, i'm taking baby steps at a time.
real small steps..
Coz i cant afford to get hurt.
Okay i admit i'm useless,
but..I'd like to be careful.
Especially to stuffs i've nv been to..

Sometimes, its really not good to b too close with a friend.
Coz when u're in conflicts, it reli hurts.
She knows me well, n i knew her well too.
But nobody is gonna say sorry,
And i' wont be the first to either.

Yesh, as stubborn i can be;
i can pretend or fake it like nobodys business..
At the end of the day, both of us r still not getting anywhere.
but right now, i dont feel the need to apologize ..
Coz i dont tink i'm the only one in fault.

Alright girls, incase u r thinking;
i'm not into les or those kind of stuffs..
Juz between me n a close fren at work.
Thats all.

I juz hope everything will turn out well in time to come.
And i need to learn to be more expressive.
Yes, EXPRESSIVE.

To all babes who reading tis: u girls ROCKS!
Love ya~

I wanna go KOREA.

Updates

2009-01-04T00:57:00.000-08:00

Woa.
This gonna b my first post for 2009.

I did a quick catchup on others, since i haven been in touch wif them for some time.
Right now, i'm blogging from my workplace
coz there reli isnt anything to do..

And for this yr, i hope to...

No 1: Get attached.
No 2: Get attached.
No 3: Get attached.
No 4: Get attached.
No 5: Get attached.
No 6: Get attached.
No 7: Get attached.
No 8: Get attached.
No 9: Get attached.
No 10: Get attached.

Yesh, this is how badly i wanted to.

I dont know wad else to say..

And i didnt include any tags, so u guys cant say anything~

Lalala

Just Married

2008-10-18T22:39:00.000-07:00

What is it like to be married?
During the matrimony, the Father asked the couple:
"Are you sure what u are doing?"

Indeed, honeymoon eventually ends.
Theres reli a lot more to marriage.
Let alone the courage to wed..
It means to stay together for the rest of the lives, thru thick n thin.

Was so touching to witness them esp during the vows n rings exchange.
They were actually my secondary teachers den..

Tats my's first time attending a church wedding~
And did a lil catch up of the others too.

Church of St Mary of the Angels

The couple.

Last pic. Tada~

Tat's solihin. Dont know why when we meet, he always takes pic with me.

Thanks sookeng for the pics~

God save me

2008-10-08T09:46:00.000-07:00

Big THANKS!
to everyone who celebrated my birthday.

Infact tis yr is really different from the rest.
I actually worked on tat day,
and it was amazing!

Imagine it to be the first day with F1 racing, cool.

Anyways, for now n the coming month..
I'm so damn broke.
Tink i spent almost 90% of my pay tis mth..
partly due to my new specs too, coz the old one broke.

Aiyo..no money.
How?
Lotsa of birthdays to come too~
And wedding to attend..
And i'm going to KL few days later..
more SHOPPING~

The pay is not enough.

Love

2008-09-09T18:38:00.000-07:00

What do i want for birthday?

Others asked..
And i asked myself.

Well, I WANT to fall in love!
I want to..very very much.

But i seemed to attract the wrong things.
like the cleaners n stuff..

The guy is cute, but something is still missing.
There were awkard times,
There were some silence.
But just a single glimpse, is enough to made my heart flutters.

Somehow, i found myself having difficulty talking to the one i'm attracted to.
But i could talk anything under the sun to others.
Is there something wrong with me?

My frens was talking bout how good it is to be single,
the freedom and stuff.
But, one couldnt be single for the whole life right?
And I have lived 21 yrs without loving anybody.
Isnt that sad?

I dont really share or think of others.
I do things on my own, go out alone,
and sometimes talking to myself.
Not that i dont have any frens.
They are always around whenever i need them.
But i guess,

I really need someone to teach me how to love.

2008-08-06T10:03:00.000-07:00

A preview of me at work.
But most of them had left the job alr.

Someone who used to smile, greet & chat around.

And suddenly, the person becomes strict and ignore others totally.

Its amazing wad stress can do to people.

Nothing could be worse than being ignored.

Its hard to accept.

2008-07-14T15:35:00.000-07:00

Hah. Seems like my life had stopped at graduation.

Didnt reli want to update,
guess i lost my interest alr.

Anyways, dere had been lotsa of changes,
but everything still goes on.

After having so much fun,
I still dunno wad i want.

Good day~

Funny ppl

2008-06-04T15:27:00.000-07:00

2008-05-25T23:45:00.000-07:00

Fun~
Looking forward to work everyday.
At least for now..
Issac is funny.
He called me like 2 times?
While on way to board..

If everything goes well,
Lasik Surgery for me at December.

I'm trying
very hard.

2008-05-15T12:04:00.000-07:00

Desktop is down.
Sometimes it can be used, sometimes it cant.
And it keeps me away from my dramas & youtubing.
Still have to wait for sometime before i can get my lappy.

And if i'm going for japan next year,
I 'll have to give up my lasik surgery.
I'm not rich you see..
Have to save for wadever i wan to spend.

The home delivery for grad robe was fast.
it arrived on sun instead of mon.
And sun was mother's day!
Hah..tink the guy dont need to celebrate mother's day.
Can imagine myself wearing it.
Didnt even bother to try on it anyway.

Will be going for a health checkup later..
Juz sth stupid required by the company.
Well, its really fun working with ppl u like,
And its hell if i dont.
Bored to hell.

The guys dere ah.. erm, abit like small kids.
Some may get a lil touchy or desperate.
But still okay lah.. no harm anyway.
But those pretty boys are really pretty..
And i guess dey can be quite hard to get.

At least is better than working at airport,
though i get 2 work with my frens dere.
Never work in all girls environment.
Coz guys are more initiative & helpful.
And they dont bitched you at the back.

Ah..
I miss my travel mates alr~

2008-05-14T23:26:00.000-07:00

Yea!
I posted the photos as promised.
Sorry if tat takes too long.

Well, this was taken at Zhang dong liang's event juz outside our hotel at xi men ting.

Zhang Dong Liang~

The autograph session's queue was long, but it was fast too. Von & teng bought his cd n went to queue for it.

And we saw SHE too.

Mirama's ferris wheel~
The one u see in Huan huan ai drama.

We took the ride n it was a lil scary becoz the cabin was shaky.

Stella's choc shop

At Dan shui fishermen's wharf.

We wanted the long long ice cream but couldnt find it. So had these instead.

The night market!

We can reli shop from day to night.

And the cash runs out.

At Taipei 101!

So glad that i went up..

And i thought their lift was amazing,

its actually faster than my house 's lift.

And it goes right up to 88 level..from 5th level.

Can even feel the pressure when it reached.

At BuBu car restaurant,

where liu xing hua yuan drama scene was shot.

The atmosphere and food was nice.

And its the first time i had pasta in green sauce!

DEKCAB

2008-05-03T17:21:00.000-07:00

Backed.
Back?

hah. wadever..

I juz went for a haircut!
And i like wad i've got.
Its my first time dere so..
nt so much bout expectation.
And, the guy cutting my hair was so gentle~
oh my god..
As if he's looking for hair bugs.
Too gentle liao..

Anyways, started work ytd.
And irfan was my partner again!
He's funny lah..
Prev didnt really like him coz i dont get wad he's saying.
But now..
He's lame~

Woot.
The trip dere is really meant for shopping.
So many stuffs to shop at taipei~
even the money i brought is not enough..
70% shopping
20% eating+ TV watching
10% side seeing
And there r so many cuties dere too..

I like Taipei101,
yu yuan ma tou and the Bu Bu restaurant!
Had lotsa fun wif the girls~
And of course, the leggings monster.
Lucky thing is that we got to see zhang dong liang & SHE..
And von + teng went for ZDL's autograph.

Miss the girls alr~
they have the ferris wheel dere too,
where the drama huan huan ai was filmed.
By the way, i finally went for the flyer ride ytd at work during the night.
Couldnt feel its movement at all coz its so damn slow.
And the scene is juz like tat loh..
But lucky its not as shaky as the taiwan de..
Not so scary though.

Will be busy from now on with work.
FROM NOW ON
Does tat sounds familar?
Hah! ZDL's album of course~

Happy happy.
The service i got frm the salon makes my day~
Today is a happy day.
Okays, will post the pics when i've got them all.

Mutual

2008-04-22T19:32:00.000-07:00

Mutual (adj): -Having the same relationship each to the other
-Directed and received by each toward the other
-Possessed in common

For some reasons, one is attracted to a person.
Even if you do not talk much to him/her, just a hi or bye is enough to spark things up.

Somehow, the one who keeps talking to me doesnt really interest me.
Its the one who I hardly talks to attracts my attention.
Some said, its due to individual magnetic field.
You could sense the person's coming a distant even before u see it.

And that's getting more frequent in my workplace now.
There's quite a number of cuties you know~
Those sunshine, cheerful types of course.

For the first time, i begin to like my job.
There's a clever mix of guys & girls.
Both pretty & ugly, Old & young.
The youngest is 17 and the old ones aged up to 61.
Old ppl r really friendly,
especially the retirees.

Maybe because its weekday,
and the less crowd makes my day easier.
Or could be Marcus, my partner who kept chatting to keep me alert.

9 days off.
Wads more to ask man..
But i guess dere's quite alot to catch up after that.
And i would definately miss my cuties~

Alrightes.
Taiwan, here i come!

Fatigue 200%

2008-04-21T09:20:00.000-07:00

Wah..the job can really kill.
Stand straight for 9 hrs every 4 days.
den only 1 day off.
Juz tat cya is 3 days work, 1 day off.

Only went for OTJ on first day.
Was thrown to sharks the following days.
And the leader reminds me how much i miss graham.
She was kind of bitchy and intimidating..
Was super blur for second day..
coz was separated from another guy wif me on first day.
Lucky gt him entertain me..
Haiz, but now all diff shifts..

I am new to ticketing,
and their queue mgt is very diff from wad i've seen.
Most of the staff are like 17 plus range.
So all are youngsters.
Dere's so much to learn bout people relations.

And i'm seriously tink i'm brave enough to work for this without any friends.
Claps.
Almost feel like quitting after 2nd day.
Dont know any single soul at all.

I swear my supervisor sue is from aiport mgt or CSO team.
I saw her before!
Wonder if i had choose a wrong job.
Oh man..
And i felt cheated.
Shld have indicate a higher pay for all this tiring tasks!
AAAhhh..
But the job is better if u working wif the right ppl.
And good ting is the roster is diff everyday.

Its too late now.
Though the contract has no dateline,
but i must must perserve to stay for a yr at least.
If not, my resume wont look nice.

Wadever it is, i've to be prepared to suffer after my comebaack frm taiwan.
7 + days of holiday!
okay,
will be at away for taiwan on 23rd to 30th.
Then, I be backed to hell.
For sake of money.

And i've return my lappy to the sch.
Yesh the antique.
Tink will get my pink Vaio ard june..
provided that i'd save up!

Fly

2008-04-11T14:04:00.000-07:00

Isnt it nice?

The Singapore flyer.

Juz went for interview .

Guess will be damn fun working there.

Was shocked when the interviewer says he knew wad i've been doin for job as CYA.

sitting at counters n stuffs..

I stared at him.

That was a lil rude.

I said no, we have to rove more now.

Obviously he worked at the airport for 8-9 yrs.

I told him i was a CYA..

and he was like shaking his head..

And asked if we wore the red caps.

Of course, we only wore the vest.

Never heard of the caps.

Then, he saw the jet quay thing..

And asked who i report to there..

Then, i alr forgot their names.. Its not easy to recall u see.

Suddenly, he said "is it kieran? Axel?"

I was like WHAT!

He knew almost everybody at the airport.

Wad the..

I'm not here for interview bout the airport.

And i'm not working there anymore.

And to add,

this person named Norezan, kept flooding my mails.

Felt like slammin her back.

Wth..

I'm not working at the airport ANYMORE.

It kept haunting me..

But the fellow says the job will b very much like CYA.

So i guess...I'm back to sq one.

But i have direct bus there..

And its shift work again..

So i dont mind.

At least, its something.

Wanted to tell cass immediately..

but she's at hk now.

Haiz..

11 more days~

Chalet

2008-04-11T09:00:00.000-07:00

Its the least no of ppl i had in chalet.
5 ppl stayed overnight,
and there were 4 beds.
Almost like a hotel rm for us.
Only $10.7 per day,
somemore is hh's mum treat!

How nice~
Had fun there,
esp at Escape theme park.
The rides were fun, but can be better.
And i really like the one bout water spraying..
and the staff were cute!

The chalet and escape theme park admission were free.
Thanks to her mum again.
But the food and cab fare did broke a hole in my pocket alr..
First time book 5 seater maxi cab down to chalet.
Cost us like..$45?
Lol.
Took cab becoz of the heavy food & stuffs.

Empty.Full.

2008-04-03T18:42:00.000-07:00

When u looked at your fren's blog,
you catch a glimpse of their life & latest happenings.

I went to looked at GX's and i felt a lil sad for her frens.
She mentioned about a guy and a girl,
both of them are good frens.
But when the guy confessed his liking for her,
She avoided him.

Its always like that.
Things never turn out the way u want it.
Yep, when u made your confession;
U put the friendship at risk.
No doubt bout it..

Of course, people's reaction differs when they hear it.
Some were happy, some were surprised.
But most of their basic instinct was to flee first,
before they could feel happy bout somebody liking you.
Cant blame the girl for running away either.
She might have her reasons.

I like to imagine stuffs,
and this got frequent especially nowadays.
Most of the times, i would stared blankly into space..
Thinking of nothing and not talking to anyone.
Even more so during the day when all are out for school.
Nobodys at home except me..
facing all four walls..

I'm not saying that's not good,
i can cope pretty well with loneliness.
I can talk to people if i want to.
I can go out if i felt like it.
Just that, something seems amiss.

Alright, now i feel like deleting the above mentioned.
But if i do,
then nothing much will be left.

Anyways, Its April now.
That's fast..
To think i'm going to taiwan soon.

Take a look at this guy.

Isnt he cute?
Jang Geun Suk.
He's the same age as me, a korean artiste.
He acts, sings and do hostings for some shows.
Got to know him through drama hong gil dong,
didnt really like him becoz of his story character.
And he seemed too young to fit inside the whole story.

And so, i went youtubing and realized there's so many videos on him.
Happened to came upon one that he and heechul was the hosts for a show.
And i really like his voice, deep & sexy.
Its cool that he can sings too.

Oppa, sarang hae~

I shall think of nothing else,

but tomorrow's chalet~

Trying

2008-03-27T16:04:00.000-07:00

I fell in love with this song the moment i first hear it.
Sounds a lil sad.
Its from Hong Gil Dong the Kdrama that airs on KBS ch.
And i really love KBS ch..
I've been watching it everyday!
Esp Single daddy in love..

I've finish watching GetKarl!Osujung few days back.
The one that airs on ch U during weekdays.
Its nice , heartening & funny at the same time.
So hooked up that i even bought the vcds.
coz loading it will take ages..And i cant wait.

I was quite upset by the interview i had.
Esp when i realized the job doesnt suits me.
I not that wild n nature-like..
And now i seemed to have the phobia towards interviews..
Esp those for managerial positions.

As for now, i'm currently the domestic helper.
Doing those you-know chores..
Mom got me the 'longchamp' bag in chilli red!
Its not the real one.
Coz i dont want to spend my money on that kind of material.
Simply not worth it.

I'm getting nowhere.
Stuck.

Birds

2008-03-20T16:17:00.000-07:00

Sookeng already got her job at cpf.
Left me nia..

Because i believe that good things are worth the time searching for,
i take my time to hunt for a job i want.
Preferably related to tourism, my dip of course so i can apply wad i've learnt.
If not, I'd wasting my time away doing things i dislike.
Slacking afterall, isnt a job.

Time for resume spamming.

And earlier on,
the birdpark ppl called me..
not the birds though.
And i'm scheduled for interview on monday.
Will go n take a look first..
If i'm set on the job,
then I will officially be a 'niao ren'..

To think i hated the birds so much..
Wad an irony.

Might go for a trip to shanghai in sept.
Still not confirmed yet..
Have to see that woman..
I've got 5 months to saveup~

Twenty One

2008-03-18T17:49:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday to Ms JOHH.
Had fun at the party ,
though there's some spoilers bout the pyjamas theme
which had gone quite wrong.. Hah

21,
is a vibrant age for most teens going to young adults.
If 21 sounds old,
try 31.

As for my birthday this year,
I hoped to celebrate it in HongKong or Japan.
That is, with the close bunch of ppl i loved.
It's only march now,i have plenty of time to save up.

At the age of 21, I want to have at least a diploma.
Though i lose out few yrs as i was in Normal aca.
At the age of 26, I will have a stable job & a degree at least.
At the age of 28, I will have my driving license & hopefully a car.
At the age of 30, I must travel at least to Rome, Paris, Italy or Milan and Venice.
By the time i hit 31, I'll celebrate my birthday at a grand ballroom.

I have hit my first target.
Sounds like i'm gonna work like hell for the above.
For the year2008,
It all & basically about money earning,
working the ass for it before i get my hearts down to study.
Or even a slave for money..

All the best man.

THE ONE

2008-03-04T17:13:00.000-08:00

Comics.
That's what i'm have been busy and crazy with these few days.
Not all types of comics, infact is a specific one.
is drawn by Nikky Lee, an author from taiwan.
Didnt know it's a she till i came upon her website.
And the story she wrote really drives me crazy!
Hopelessly Romantic.
I've got this song from her site too~

But i'll have to wait till june or july for book7.
Haiz..
It'll b like 3 or 4 months later.. Arggghhh.
She really takes her time man.
But its a good thing that i'm going to Taiwan this April.
Hope i get to meet her. Hah!
What am i thinking..

And because of the influence,
I spent a night writing my own story.
Wanted to give it a title, but couldnt decide yet.
So here it goes:

London,
a country i've aways wanted to experience and to explore with.
Narrow laneways, little avenues of discovery adventure..
And here I am, at an afresco cafe in a quiet afternoon.
Enjoying the sweet aroma and watching the crowd pass by.
So far, i've been here for 3 months without family & friends.
Just me and myself.

For the time being, i'm part timing at a fashion show agency as a style assistant.
Whenever there's fashion shows, i'll be there to assist with the matching of clothes & accessories,
getting them all ready for the show before it starts.

Today, its Sunday.
And i'll be attending a ball later.. (some silly stuff organized by my co.)
The people here sure knows how to dress..
They really dressed to kill.

Ahh.. A handsome chap just passes by.
He's smartly dressed in black tuxedo, black sleek hair and pointy leather shoes.
Maybe he's on his way to a fashion show.. see the way he dressed.
Just another face in crowd.

The time is up and i made my way to Kiliney House for the ball.
I dont want to be late you see..
Once inside, I searched for my collegues and familar faces.
Luxury ballroom, marble floors, poshed corridors well-lit in orange lightnings.

There wasnt any familar faces in sight and that's weird.
Where the hell are they?
This time, a fellow caught my attention.
Dressed like a frenchman in black tuxedo, sleek hair combed to the back, revealing his forehead.
Wait. Did i mentioned black tuxedos?
Why does it sounds familar..?

He had a glass of champagne in his hand, and was surrounded by a bevy of beauties.
Typical scene you would expect and those you-know-how charming techiques.
The good lookings always get everything.
Whatever..

Finally, I found my friends.
We chatted and helped ourselves to the food.
After dinner, the people moved to the center and started to dance.
I remained in my seat and watched as they danced.
No partner, no lover, nothing.
Maybe i should go.

I took a quick glance at my watch and stood up to look for the exits.
Standing at 1.52m, its not easy to jostle through the crowd when they are all almost 1.8m & above.
As i made my way out, a fellow blocked me.
"Excuse me?"
He did not move.
"Excuse?!" I'm losing my patience.
He did not attempt to move either.

I looked up to give him a good stare, and my heart almost skip a beat.
It was him!
The one i saw earlier on.
Oh my god..
I could even smell his colonge from here.
We are just an arm length away.

But he appeared taller than i thought, almost a head taller.
Damn, why do he have to be that tall?
Finally i spoke, "If you do, please excuse.."

He cut me halfway and held out his hand, gesturing to the dance floor.
What the hell?
I couldnt dance and i dont know how.
Imagine a kid dancing with such a tall fellow..

"Sorry," i said while i looked at his face.
Basic courtesy to look into eyes of people when u are talking..
On a closer look, I noticed his dark brown eyes, thick black hair and he looked kind of mixed blood.
A bit different from the other westerns..

"Why?" He asked, searching my face for an answer.
He had an american accent though..
"Erm..Sorry." I said and turned to walk away.
"Come on.." A hand touched my shoulder and stopped me.
This fellow is getting irritating.

"I NEED TO GO TO THE LADIES!" I blurted out loud enough for him to hear.
I shoved his hand aside and take a step back.
Suddenly, everything became quiet.
I looked around and realized everybody were looking at us.
Maybe i said it too loud.
Even the dancers stopped to take a look at us.

Without saying, i dashed out of the ballroom and headed to the nearest washroom.
What a Shame! I thought.
I left the ball after texting my friends goodbye on the phone.

'Oh Shit!'
I forgot about my jacket.
And i'm already metres away from Kiliney House already.
Its now 11 degrees in London, enough to make someone catch a cold.
Here I am, in a sleevesless flowery summer dress.
Freaking cold.
But i'm too weary to make my way back.
Nevermind.

I still decided to walk home though i'm shivering.
I could save myself a few bucks from that~

Up front, there a bunch of teenagers smoking and drinking.
I quicken my pace and avoid their stares.
But when i'm juz about to past them, one fellow grabbed my shoulders and pinned me to the wall.

"Hey miss, wanna play?"
"我不懂你在说什么!" I said in chinese, pretending to be a china woman.
They wont understand anyway.

"What the hell are you toking about?!"He laughed and turned to his friends.
"放开我!"
He just grabbed me harder.
Ouch! "You are hurting me!" I shouted.
"So you do Know english huh?" he chuckled and raised his hand to touch my face.
Damn.

"Help!" I screamed, hoping somebody will hear it.
As if a miracle, someone did came and punched the hell out of that fellow!
I closed my eyes, afraid to see what's next.
I always hated fighting since young and I hardly quarrel with anyone.

Then, i tried to run but a hand grabbed mine's.
Instead, the guy lead me to a narrow alley behind a building that looked like a church.
"This way," he said breathlessly while still holding on to my hand.
We hide behind the pillar and those teenagers finally gave up after losing sight of us.

I could feel the warmth from his hands.
Those sickening teens left and It became very quiet.
We could only hear our own breathing and gasps.

What a day for me! Running in heels is really hell!
Its too dark in the alley for me to see the guy's face.
I could only roughly make an outline of him.
He had his cap on, face in shadows.
Hmm...
He's well built, lean and tall.
Way too tall, almost a head taller.
Hey wait again.
Did i met him earlier on?
Is he the one at the ball?
But he's wearing a cap and something like a leather jacket. No tuxedos.
Cant even see the colours of his clothing.
Stupid lights! I cursed grumbly.

"Thank You," I murmured softly while checking out my clothes.
"Are you alright?" He asked with a hint of concern.
"Oh i'm okay, my house's just a few blocks away." I brushed him aside & tried to go.
Who knows he might be the next dirty fellow..

Just when i'm about to go, something fall onto my shoulders.
It was the leather jacket.
"That's for you. Is cold out here." He said.
"Thank you again. So nice of you.." I smiled, slightly surprised by his act.
"Why not i sent you home?My house is just nearby." He offered, once again.
"Fine."
I gave up. This fellow might be desperate for tips i guess.

We walked and were slienced throughout.
None of us spoke and i didnt attempt to either.
I'm tired.

Finally, i reached.
"Many Thanks," I thanked him with a smile and handed him some 10 dollar notes.
"WHAT!" he seemed to be shocked to receive the money.

该不会嫌不够吧? 真贪心!
难道你对老娘有兴趣?? I said jokingly in chinese.
It's good that i'm bilingual. The folks here wouldnt understand chinese.
I stuff him another 30 bucks and turned to walk away.

"开玩笑!" A voice said.
I froze.
He understands chinese! Oh my god!
I turned to face him, "You know chinese?"
"of course!" he replied with disgust and handed me back the money.

He turned and walk away, Obviously pissed off by what i've done.
"Sorry!" I shouted, hoping he could hear it.

Whatever. I'm gonna treat myself to a nice hot bath.
Once home, i switched on the Tv and went to bathe.
So glad to be home~
I was so tired and slept throughout.

The alarm went off and i woke up and saw a brown leather jacket at the dinning table.
What the hell is that?!
I scratched my head and tried to recall what happened yesterday.
Suddenly, there's a ringing.
Sounds like a phone's ring.
It was the phone. Just that it wasnt mine.
It came from the jacket.

I hopped off the bed and answer it.
"hello," came a voice from the other.
"This is Nic and this is my phone, can you return it to me?" It asked.
"What? Your phone? Why did it end up with me?!" This is ridiculous.
"I dont know."He said.
"fine, Meet me at the Danson Park tonight at 6pm then." I hung up.
Danson Park is near my house you see..
What a day to start with..!

And so, i met him after work.
There he was, a young chap seated at the bench reading newspapers.
Casually dressed in polo Tees, pants and sneakers.
He had a drink at his side and was glancing at his watch from time to time.

Okay, he looked abit cute. I thought.
I went up, approached him and showed him the phone.
Then, he looked up from the newspapers.

Oh Freak!
He was the charming guy at yesterday's ball!
Except that his hair is all spiked up..
Dark eyeballs search me as i handed him the phone.

"Oh Yes!,"he exclaimed upon receiving it.
"Thank you," he smiled and i almost melt.
I was too shocked to speak.
I could only stared back in disbelief, speechless.
Then, before i could see it coming, he leans forward and gave a light kiss on my lips.
天阿!
Whats happening ?
Am i dreaming?

Then he spoke. "Care for a dinner treat, my lady?"
What the hell? Dinner? Treat?
Should i go?
I dont know how to react and what to say.

"Erm..I just had my dinner." I turned to walk away after saying.
A hand grabbed me from behind.
"真的吗?" A voice asked.

He speaks chinese!
Before i could even open my mouth, he grabbed my hand and lead me straight ahead.
Of course, i can only follow. What to do?
He's holding on to my hand and i couldnt do anything.
Suddenly, something struck me.
Somehow, this scene looks familar.
Did something like that happened yesterday?
The warmth from his hands..

But he seemed to walk way too fast and i had difficulty catching up.
What a show off for long legs..
When is he gonna stop? and where are we going?
I'm getting tired and i tired to pull my hand away.
"Stop," i said.

"We have reached!" he exclaimed happily.
What the...?!
It doesnt looked anything like a restaurant. Not a cafe either.
More like a cottage house, those u would see in fairytales, except that this is painted in bright purple and yellow.

An old lady came out & greeted us.
"Hey sweetie, We gonna have steaks for dinner.." She said while hugging him.
"And this is..?" she asked.

"A friend". He replied without a thought and pulled me in along with him.

To be continued.

Okay peeps, hows the story?
Typical and old-fashioned.
With inspiration from the comic..
The comic is even better than this!Hah..
Ten times better~
Juz that its more complex..
Anyway, give comments so i can decide whether to continue the story or not.

Something Happy

2008-02-18T20:51:00.000-08:00

I'm still tired, but i shall post something happy.

Pretty in Pink

Family of Cousins.

My sis n bro are inside, spot them.

Other than them, the rest had no blood relations with me.

Because my mother is fostered.

Cousin Sis , younger than me by 2 yrs.

Sis and me at a chinese restaurant, coz other eateries are closed on new yr.

Maybe it was a wrong choice to work for jetquay.

Y do make myself till so tired..
Dumb.
Midnight shift is fun, but too much of it is deadly.
But good thing is that i get to work with cass, peiwei and rest.
The sick thing is i haven even got my staff pass, so i cant get thru immigration.

FUCK YOU KENNETH!
Seriously hate him..
Will siam him as best as i can.
6 days more.. unless i'm off again tml.
Actually the job's kind of easy..
Most of the passengers are nice,'
Its only the kenneth the sucky one.

Shall rest, shop and catch up with my frens after all this shit.

Oh man

2008-02-17T02:41:00.000-08:00

Its 0240 am now.
And i'm at changi airport jetquay working.
Because its midnight shift,
We slack like hell.
Not much flights till 5am..

Seriously tired, or fatigue.
Even when i reached home, i cant really sleep.
Felt quite stressed bout tis job initially.
Coz there's so much things to do.
F&B serving, arrival and departure flight service..
And it had been so long since i last do f&B.
Though its only for 2 wks, its much more stressful than the 5 mths attachment.
Wth.

I still have 8 more hrs to go.
Felt like closing my eyes even as i'm typing.
All bcoz of the stupid airshow
1 wk more, can de!

The End

2008-02-06T23:23:00.000-08:00

1st feb marked the end of attachment.

Black and Red.
Yep, stock brokers or forex traders..
Survived tat for 3 mths plus..
Looks abit cute now though

I'm closer with frens,
learn quite abit,
seen many cuties,
eating good food,
meeting celebrities, ( jay zhou was the last, to date)
and slacking meaningfully.

Today is the 6th and i'm missing the transit alr..
Spent close to 200 bucks on cosmetic n skincare alone.
Coz got those discounts n cheap price stuff..
Dare not even imagine all those other expenses..
Coach bags n stuff..will exceed 1000 bucks i guess.
Freaking hell.
Me n joanne were sayin that our account looks like we ve nv been on tis attachment before.

Anyway, will be back in airport to work 4 two wks..for the airshow thing.
Sorry bout nt being able to help tengz..
Wonder how they r doing..
Sure super busy bah..

Photos below, taken few days back..

From left- joanne,cass,cailing,me,peiwei and rin

The joker.

He was our good leader. He's thoughtful & humurous, sort of bf i would want, frankly speaking. Too bad he's attached. And he's too tall n sometimes a bit stingy. Hah

But tis fellow shocked me few minutes ago..

Received a msg from him saying he brokeup wif his gf.

And i thought dey were real close all while..

Wad a news for the new year..

My Team

Lunch at Fish & Co.

We didnt work at all for the last 2 days. Had been taking photos and attendin farewell parties.

Nic yang from china..

Hein from Vietnam..

Felipe from left baggage counter.. I wasnt hugging him though. Look carefully

Tara!

Candid.

Stock brokers

Diovanni

Cass's fav.

Feel sorry for her..hope she will see him again.

Joanne's eye candy

So afraid that will miss out everyone.

And we took several more pics. Might upload them if i'm free~

Happy chinese new year~

Will post photos again de.. :)

Coffee Prince 1st Shop

2008-01-28T13:55:00.000-08:00

Kong Gi

The K drama rocks!
The one above is the object of interest.
He's thoughtful and cute,
and abit arrogant sometimes..
I'm gonna rewatch everything after my attachement.

Alright.
3 more days to end of attachment.
I thought i would be more hardworking..
But end up sneaking early off work when we r not supposed to.
Aldwin treated us ytd for his bdae.
Went for a short walk with the duty terminal manager.
Bought 2 dresses for new year.

I wanted to buy a longchamp bag in hot pink,
But they say they dun have it in tat color..
Sad sia..
And the stupid report keep bugging me.

I shall cherish my last 3 days.

2008-01-08T15:31:00.000-08:00

Happy new year.
I lost my phone on the first day.
Dropped it somewhere and some idiot picked it up.
The fellow rejected my calls,
Obviously not returning it..

I was alil paranoid bout it. Went to search over the airport,
the staff said she didnt see it.
Wad can i do?
Was afraid to tell my dad coz the phone is quite new.
So i went to buy another one the nxt day.
Exactly the same.
Took a while to get the sliver color model one.
Costed my freaking $498!
Damn!

Finally, my dad came to knew it and we went to make a police report.
He said i'm too stupid to go n buy a new one..
I could have buy a cheaper model.
Because i'm scared tat he'll find out,
And i've got no intention of telling him at all.

Finally, the whole issue is over.
Wad a happy new year..

I've got to Save Up.
My New Year Resolution: Make BIG Money

First step in Terminal3.

Fresh

2007-12-27T16:37:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year!

Hope everything starts afresh for the coming year.
Goals, money, wardrobe and beauty..

So how's your Christmas?
I spent mine at the airport.
Its quite special and fun in some ways.
Abit different from my past Xmas celebrations.
Well, working on Xmas day seems better than slacking at home.
Its my job nature to meet people..

Of cos like others, we xchange gifts and telvin taught some about balloon sculpturing.
Hah..though i dun like telvin and i swear that i'll threw his gift away if i got his,
I didnt.
He's rather pathetic
and the gifts he bought for me is damn childish.
I can only say, my sis is the one who benefits from the whole xmas gifts xchange thing.
almost 3/4 of my gifts goes to her.
They are too childish, i cant use it.
Or i give the people the idea of cute & childishness?
Sexy is something i'm looking for..
Lets hope my short hair will grow in time for lunar new year.
The auntie snipped way too short..

Mum will be away for a month.
To work as ...
Couldnt put it in eng words.
Erm.. sth like a maid that helps with ppl who gave birth.
So i will b incharge of the household issues, big and small.
Clothes washing, floor mopping and stuff..but definately not cooking.

Felt sad as she tell us wad to do when she's away.
We are short of money.
Theres nothing better than working..
But lucky i'm not alone
as there's 2 other monkeys to help out.
They will do the washin and clearing whenever i'm working.
Especially on days when i reached home closed to 1am..

Maybe, thats the way i get trained to be independent.
I should really save up this month for all the household expenses.
Blessed.

Merry Christmas!

Updates

2007-12-19T16:46:00.000-08:00

Green.
I ought to be scolded.
Just bought another Coach wristlet in green!
Costed me a hundred plus..
And i dont dare to tell my mum bout that, hah.

I finally bought my Burberry parfum too~
It comes with a bear as a gift..
And i'm liking my charles & keith bag in white more n more!

Missing joanne lots..
She took a wk leave and left to china for tour.
That's wad u call enjoying life man.
We can only work in airport nia..
The rich gets to travel and fly.
That's the difference btw being borned in a rich and poor family.
What to do?

This Xmas is really a hard one.
I'm refering to my money..
Scolding doesnt helps,
rather someone to freeze my bank.

Working actually meant Shopping.
With all those luxury boutiques around u,
its hard to resist, for me.
I still haven bought my xmas gifts for xchange..
We drew lots and i've got Brenna!
Of coz, cant tell one another bout tat..
Meant to be a secret.
What shld i buy for her??

Just switched to sony ericsson w880i.
Daddy bought a new phone n threw his old one to me..
Wad kind of father is this?

Sorry bout the quality of pic..

One of the past times:
And that include taking photos in toilet.

COACH

2007-12-07T18:03:00.000-08:00

I am the happiest girl on earth today.
329.13

That's the price for the coach bag.
And i'm so happy that i bought it.
It was on sale n there's 30% discount with additional of 10% staff discount.
What's more is that there's no GST!
Another 7% off den..
How can i not buy..
So tempting.
The original price is 500 plus,
think of it is quite worth for purchase.
I've seen some pax carrying this design before n it looked nice,
and i was thinking i wont be able to afford it.
Think i'm gonna be damn broke after X'mas.
All the fault goes to the Xmas promotion~

P.s to cass- the price have the no 13 too.

Cheers.

There's also free beverage treat by Starbucks today. So cass & me went to queue up for that.
Hah..
Somemore is during break time.
Toffee Nut Latte is nice, creamy & milky with a hint of coffee.

When i reached home this morning, 12 am plus,
I saw the bag i ordered online.

Double cheers!

After weeks of waiting, it finally arrived.
Call back home earlier on and sis told me there's isnt.
Its amazing the way they packed the bag.
The parcel doesnt look like there's a bag in it, hah.

Thanks to peiwei for all the hard work.
She n joanne isnt that bad afterall.
Wonder wads wrong with me to say they r bad.
On & Off..
Forget my prev post bah..
They helped me to buy a cake from secret receipe too~
I should be thankful.

I really hate Telvin alot.
You should see the way he scolded adeline & brenna right infront of public.
Yesh i admit we were in the wrong to shop during work,
but the sale for coach is only 1 day for staff.
Shit him bastard.

I shouldnt complain further.
Anyway, i'm left with juz a month more..

The pics for those bags are below:

The bucket bag in black n white is the one i ordered online.
Coach sling bag is at the centre.
As for the Burberry box, hmm...
Is actually picked up by ade in transit.
Apparently a pax bought it and threw the packaging away..
They took it coz it looked nice.
Hah,
nice till it ended up with me.
I'm the Trash girl.

The bag again..

Hmm, i shld plan for my nxt online spree liao.

My prev brown bag.

Took this pic for fun, with inspiration from Coach display. HAH

They always display their bags like that..

I miss you too von,
ur jokes & lameness..
Take care girl.
Especially while walking.. lol
Falling could be real dangerous, esp with heels.
Be careful & dont get hurt.

Well-deserved

2007-11-29T20:38:00.000-08:00

Woot~

I'm back from my break.
Supposely a 2 days leave,
end up i took 3 days.
In total, i didnt work for 5 days.
That is, including my original off days.

I guess some ppl will envy me bah..
Not everybody will want to exchange money for breaks or leave.
I need to take a break from those ppl too.

I'm now refreshed and ready for work.
Though my beauty has not yet return, hah!
But when i think of those people i'm gonna see tm, i'm turned off.

3 months alr..
The job and stress is not so much an issue anymore.
Its more about the people.
Okay, the people are all nice but
I dont quite like the idea of peiwei joing my team.

Eversince she came, joanne always abandoned me.
Its not that i want her company so much,
i hate being left out.

Its odd with 3 person roving about.
2 will always be at front,
1 at the back.
I'm always the last one.
They chatted like no body's business,
ignoring my existence.
I hated them.

Peiwei is nice.
But i detest her.
I think she's trying to be nice so everybody will like her.
And give others a nice-ger image.
Hypocrite.

She's not so easy to be bullied,
though others kept saying she often get bullied.
I dont like her though she helped me with my online shopping, buying stuffs and running of errands.

Some people, no matter how, juz wouldnt click.

Alright, i shall talk about something happy.

Together with my family, we went back to Muar malaysia,
as dad wanted to see his hometown.
We stayed in the hotel for the first night n that was quite a wastage actually.
Due to some issues, we had to stayed in hotel.
The next 2 days, we stayed over at dad's bro house.

I was surprised when i stepped into my cousin's room.
There were fahrenheit's posters everywhere!
Didnt know she liked them so much.
since She wasnt around, so i stayed in her room.
Literally sleeping with fahrenheit watching..hah

Aunt kept tempting me by saying there's more to shop at Malacca.
So i msged my beloveds & top people to take another day off.
Off we went to shop.
Aunt is really power.
Nobody beats her when it comes to shopping,
not even 2 hrs of driving.. juz to a shopping mall to shop.

3 days of shopping, i didnt really bought a lot.
I shopped carefully.
Hah.
U can imagine that.

Its abit tough speaking to those people there.
Because i dont know malay.
They dont know english.
a lil difficult in communicating.

Anyway, thx for reading such a loong post.
To show that u care.

Lotsa of Loves~
Muack!

2007-11-29T20:03:00.000-08:00

5011.
Hah, can try your luck .

White for purity.
Photo taken outside a temple.
The place is rather serene and soothing.

My cousin's room:

Heart

2007-11-25T16:00:00.000-08:00

Listen to your heart, they say.
But, how true can that be?
Its never easy..
And i didnt make any effort to either.

Was talking with cass yesterday at work.
And we happened to came upon someone.
I did really thought about it
I tried to do some other thinking to distract myself.
But somehow, it still popped up inside my head.

I start wondering..
What if I accepted it right from the start,
would I be a happier person than now?
Only what ifs..

It will never be the same again.
I knew.
Same goes for friends.

Affairs of the heart.
I 'm a sucker for that.

Anyway, half an hr more i'll be leaving to malaysia.
I took 2 days leave from work.
I really need a break.
I'm done with my report.
Over & submitted.
But i feel so undone still...

Meanwhile, i shall think of wad to do with my eye rings.
Eye surgery, maybe.
It became smaller too..
I felt so ugly that i wanted to hide myself.
Its always others who get the good things.
I can only watch them.
Watched

There's nothing i can do.
I just want to sleep and eat well.
That's all.

Good lucks for your reports.

Whatever it is, it wont be me.

Random

2007-11-06T01:12:00.000-08:00

Juz wanna share some silly looking pics.

The 5 of us was slacking at sunflower garden. And we took lotsa pics of our passes.
And my cam kept flashing on mine. I looked like a angel.
Okay, vomit is allowed.

The clearer one..

Mine's in red and the rest in blue. Wad does that means?

Higher position of course!

Goodbye Momo~

Suddenly, those ppl coming over to T2 seemed to be so friendly. Talked and laughed..
And i thought we wldnt click..
Now what?!
Are they real?
Or they are juz looking for ppl to tok since they will be here with me ?
And ytd Brenna bf sent us home. I was shocked coz i didnt expect him to drop me right to my doorstep. I wanted to get off at mrt station..
Awkard.

And the day before, peiwei's parents sent us home.
But tis one, only till the mrt station.
I hate having to trouble others..

Left

2007-11-01T00:20:00.000-07:00

Everything, was taken for granted.
The things i do in work, my break time, the people..
I get to see or do them everyday.
Suddenly,
those people you used to see, isnt there anymore.
Suddenly,
there were these new faces staring back at me.
Strangers at work.
Changes.

Yesterday, Maryann and Annes cried.
Their eyes were red while walking back to ops room for the last time.
Seeing them like this.. isnt what i wanted.
I too and the rest wasnt feeling good.
I hurry myself and pack my stuffs.
Gave them a hug and left.
Cause i'm afraid i'd cry too if i stay any longer.
I see myself in them..
And i've got a preview of what i'll be like when my 3 months are up.

Braving up..
Mary was joking and bitching about the new girls and company a while ago.
She even said, to walk with chest up proud to show the company its their loss for not wanting them.
But still, couldnt hold back the tears.
Afterall, human beings are supposed to be emotional.

This morning, i took my time to do my stuffs.
Visited Wuzun's blog.
And i realised how much he valued his fans.
I thought he was faking it..
Regretted for not passing him a letter of mine.
Should have spent the time writing it than following him around..

I've thought of becoming an artiste before.
But when i see others who are so much more passionate about that,
It appears that i'm merely imaginating, or even hallocinating.
He may not have the time with his family,
but he gets to travel all round the world.
That's why i'm here in tourism..
In the mean time, shall treat him as touring on my behalf then.
Trying all the food and meeting new people..

All the best to whatever you do.

Sweet Arrival

2007-10-29T03:02:00.001-07:00

ARRIVAL
Enjoy the pics people.
Some of them are blurred due to the walking and zooming.
Sorry bout squinting your eyes.. Juz take a quick look will do.

Wu Zun in Red shirt and white cap.

Wondering why they are all looking down? They are actually taking escalator down to immigration. From left is da dong followed by Calvin chen in black shirt and Wuzun on the right.

Both me and joanne were so damn lucky to take the escalator down, side by side. At same speed somemore.. Too bad the pic is blurred.

I was talking to joanne about Dadong and he heard his name called. He turned to wave and said hi to us. How Sweet!

Sweet moments. Side by side, admiring them.

How i wished the escalator were longer..

At Baggage claim area.
Can see wuzun and dadong from the pic, though not clearly.
Arron and Calvin are right behind them.

All three of them, backview. Except for dadong cause he was infront of them. As for the one in green hood, that's joanne. How cute she was to chase and take pic at the same time. Thanks to her, i got all these pics~

Close up.

Dadong and Wuzun.

Sorry again for the blur effect.

Dadong was standing and looking at the baggage belt for his luggage.

He was standing, actually all four of them.

And Wuzun is the only person taking and loading their luggage off the belt. The rest were simply starring, hah.

GoodBye

2007-10-29T02:26:00.000-07:00

Following pics taken on day of departure.
Right even before we reached the airport, those crazy fans are alr there. All crowd,pull and chase after them as they dashed into the transit. We were the lucky ones to actually able to go in.

There were also a grp of fans in transit, following them ard. But they are not as crazy and they dun grab and scratch them. Both of us juz followed them around quietly. They wanted to go to Kris lounge but went to gate instead.After that, make a u-turn to lounge. Lucky they went wrongly, if they went straight to lounge we wont get to see them.

I was quite pissed off with the woman police.
Cause she caused us not to get wuzun's autograph.

Close up of Clavin.
Real close.
Literally walking side by side, juz like friends.
I can talk to them.
I can.
But i do not know wad to start with.
So i kept quiet and watched other fans chatting with them.
Afterall, i knew them but they dont know me, abit diff to strike a conversation.

Arron in middle.

Dadong.

A pity it's blurred.

Or else it will be a nice shot.

All three inside the gatehold room. In middle is Dadong.

They went back to Taipei except for wuzun who left for Brunei.

So that's 2 different flights.

3 of them were in lounge and wuzun was shopping ard in transit.

And oh, he really loves shopping!

So, we followed him around.

I still remember that stupid police woman. We asked for wuzun autograph and he wanted to sign initially but said inconvenient after looking at the police. He was abit lost and looked at us sadly. Can see that he wanted to sign..and he looked apologetic. But then, he chose to sign for a girl in Digital Imaging shop. How sad. Why not us??

Somemore, there's only the 2 of us besides the police guards!

The rest of fans were up in lounge following the other 3.

He saying goodbye to us. Joan was fast enough to press the shutter. Guess this was the only front and clearest pic among all.

Inside gatehold room, taking out his stuff in bag for checking..

2007-10-29T01:58:00.000-07:00

Wuzun in the middle. Taking out his ziplog bag for the screening officer..

Checking his pockets for metal stuffs before going through the screening. And the officer touched him from head to toe, including the cap. How i envy him, get to touch wz..

2 fans inside talking to him. Think they purposely booked the same flight with him. How evil! And they were like pestering him with all those questions and stuff. Poor thing!

Another uncle approached him..

That's his back view.

It's really tough being an artiste.

You have to giveup a lot of things, your family, hometown, own time, hobby..

Even when u go out, u'll have to at least out on a cap.

The other 3 left before Wuzun.

And he alone without the others looked really lonely.

He seems like any other ordinary people.

Not so much about a star.

Dadong alone on the contrary, looks like a star already! Coz he's more sunshine and friendly.

Wuzun on the other hand, is more quiet and maybe an introvert.

I was thinking about them on my way home.

What if, he remembers me and came back to airport while transiting?

If he's not a star or public person, Can we be friends?

Fat hope.

Somehow, he looked abit sad though.

And sometimes staring into space in daze.

Guessed that's wad u'll be after becoming popular.

No such thing about own space and private time anymore..

But i'll always remember how he turned and waved goodbye to us. Putting up a not-so-happy smile. I'm glad that he did. Even though he was wearing his shades, i could feel him staring straight at us.

I really appreciated all these and glad that i was there. And i only slept for 4 hours before sending them off.

Tired but everything was worthed.

Before working in airport, i didnt think of getting that close to them. I will only watched them from afar.. That time in IMM session also. Watching them from a distance is enough, didnt dare to hope for much.

To think i actually get to even talk to 2 of them, i'm satisfied.

BIG THANKS to CASS.

Thanks to you.

Because of you, i knew about they arrival a week before.

Though you couldnt get to see them, i hope you can at least take a peek through my photos.

And i spent 2 whole hours typing and posting this.

Really appreciated that you shared the info with us..

Xie Xie!

Off to do my report~

Birdnest

2007-10-16T12:35:00.000-07:00

As the title suggests, u know wad i'm gonna talk about.
I've got myself a bag of tonic.
2 cans of birdnest and 2 bags of Aloe vera.
All for free..
One of the passenger couldnt take it on board flight as they are more than 100ml.
And I tried various way to helped her, the airlines juz dont allow.
She even told me they cost her a thousand plus..
So they could only dispose or give them away.
How lucky i was.
To think i was actually there at the counter when they approached.
If not, someone else might have got it.

Its like.. being or working in tourism industry, u get to see alot of celebrities.
And that's good.

HAiz..
Till now, i still haven got my pay.
the org simply sucks at that..
And we joked about striking outside their office or coming late for work.
Their employee's welfare SUCKS!
Wth. Its october 16 alr.
Idiot.

2007-10-12T18:41:00.000-07:00

I saw stefanie sun!
Didnt noticed till joanne alert me.
And we followed her all way to baggage claim area.
We asked if we could take a pic with her
But she rejected saying she's too tired & offered for an autograph instead.
And none of us actually brought papers!
Damn.
Wad a pity..
But she's really nice and polite.
And to think that i actually TALK to her, with her replying me.
Cool!
The first artise i've spoken to..

Ytd, was at the movie theatre inside transit.
Spent 45 mins watching Aquamarine.
And we shouldnt be there while on job duty.
Who cares~
The passengers are really spoilt.
They have almost everything..

Sorry if i kept toking about work.
Coz that's wad i'm doing everyday.

I find the four shatec guys .. childish.
Not that they are bad,
Its entertaining sometimes.
I guess the worst amongst the 4 is karl.
He slack, smoke like nobody's business.
No reponsibility at all.
Think he looks gorgeous and stuff.
Worst den a kid.
So wad if ur family's rich?!
Asshole.

Telvin is fun initially but i see him more often,
it became boring.
As for muzzy, i dont see him tat often.
For graham, i see him more as a leader.
And he's really good.
He has wad it takes to be one.

I saw their blog, by the four of them.
caasshatec.blogspot.com
If you have some time to spare..

I'll be seeing cass more often
and she's assigned to T2.
How great!
Think by end of attachment,
she will be tired of me~

Eye candies and cuties and more cuties.
That's wad interest me most.

3 months plus left
for me to decide what i really want to do.

Pretty Ugly

2007-10-08T16:17:00.000-07:00

Hah. Ice skating..
Oh i juz recalled,
Ytd i slipped as i walked down the stairs.
But i managed to balanced myself and did not fall.
That was the second time.
Time to change to another pair of shoes.
Joanne was saying how good my balancing is.
Yes of course, i'm from ice skating remember?

Now i had to travel to & fro for work,
I find those students who came to airport juz to study really stupid.
Its like..
How i wish i dont have to come all the way here for almost everyday.
And there these ppl are, here specially juz to study or revision n stuffs.
How dumb.

Yesterday, a japanese man gave me a compliment.
He was saying that i looked pretty.
I was like..wth.
Because i had my specs on..
And that fellow was practically facing and drooling upon me.
So scary. As if he's gonna eat me up..
Then, he offered a handshake
mentioning how impress he was to see me.
Of course, i walk off quickly after that.
He was still at the counter..
I think i was abit rude,
i was too shocked to say anything.
Should have thank him nicely for that.

Anyway, he was the third guy who compliments. So far..
Think twice before u say a girl in specs is pretty.
It could be an insult..
And the girl might probably felt much worst after hearing tat.
Because she would be even prettier without specs and
to accept the fact tat she couldnt live without one.
Cute, maybe..
but definately not pretty.

And its normal to pick up branded stuffs like Coach bag, handphones and burberry handkechief..
If only i do not need to return them to lost/found counter,
I would be 20 times richer.
Stay somewhere around the money changer and u could picked up some coins, if u're lucky.
One of the CSOs got a barbie doll and gave it to me upon knowing i had a sister.

And the current csos are leaving.
Tml, the new ones would be there.
I'm both happy and sad.
Coz, i dun really like some of them.
And sad for myself that i had to adjust to new ppl.
Wad a chore..

Real

2007-10-07T11:00:00.000-07:00

This morning, i wokeup in tears.
Again, i dreamt of someone dying..
Is another relative of mine,
no blood relations though..
Hope its not hinting me or something.

I'm really glad that you sweeties actually bother to read my entries in midst of working life.
Went out wif cass the day before..
And we got a wow service from secret recipe.
Quite shocked initially..
We got complimentary drinks by a simple act..

If you see people slacking, would u tell them off?
Wad if they were your frens?
If they were my close ones, i might slack together with them.
But if they were simply people i hardly talk to, den i would report that to others.
This job seriously is easy.
A month is enough to reduce my motivation to zero.
Seeing eye candies and money is more of my motivation now.
My David~

Didnt sleep well today.
Dark eye rings..damn dark.
Even cosmetic surgery wont help.
My teeth is worst alr..
So tired, no energy.
Seems like something is amiss.

And yesterday we were talking about ice skating with carol n joanne.
Really hope we could meet up and go for some rounds.

Gonna work later..
Good luck~

Public

2007-09-30T16:08:00.000-07:00

I made the blog public already.
Cause i find it a hassle to login to view..
Juz do me a favour by not disclosing the site to other ppl.
I wouldnt want them to know they are being bitched~
Thanks!

Thanks again to those who wished me.
And i do hope my wish comes true.

Not feeling well these days,
and i couldnt sleep well too.
I was tired, very tired.
Wondering why...
All those travelling and talking are really exhausting.
I'm the stupidest fool.
But i realized this job is in fact a breeze.
Not much stress,
and i get to see my frens.
I'm not alone and that's good.

I'm working solo now and everythings fine.
Besides getting complaints and hostile passengers, that is.
Some asked me and i wasnt sure..
'So u dont know huh.. Nevermind, thx you.'
How hostile.

Those bad people i mentioned earlier,
seemed to be nicer now.
And the nicer ones,
became a lil irritating.
What to do..

I dont want to miss out all the good stuffs..
Really.

2007-09-30T15:24:00.000-07:00

2007-09-25T11:33:00.000-07:00

2007-09-25T11:13:00.000-07:00

Dinner at Sakura restaurant is nice.
The buffet is good, esp the variety...
From the basics to cakes and ice cream.
Eat till u vomit.

Thanks gerz,
for the celebration and the cake.

I begin to appreciate the people alr..
I dun find joanne as rude anymore.
In fact, i'm becoming abit like them.
Hah..
But there's a Cso who kept finding fault with me.
SCrew her, bitch!
Of coz, cant expect everyone to like me.
And i think i'm born naturally with a black face.
Even more black after work.
U wont feel like smiling at all.

Wonder hows everyone doing..
Hope they are fine~
And i miss my frens..really
Esp cass, tengz and Von.

God bless~

Crash

2007-09-19T18:22:00.000-07:00

The news of aircrash in phuket airport came quite sudden.
That time when i first got the news,
we were in the ops room preparing notes for the Changi Senior Ambassadors.
Then, the PA gers ran about and said something regarding crash.
I was abit slow..
And realised it later.
But neither did they announced the aircrash to public over the air nor the the CSOs telling the passengers.
The instruction was,
'Do not tell the passengers anything about the aircrash,
Juz say the phuket flights were cancelled due to bad weather.'
And so, many pax came and asked about the cancelled flights.
It's upsetting to know that the accident occur when it is landing.
Juz a few minutes more and u can get off the plane..
But still..
And the whole cabin crew died.

Nevermind.

Think happy thoughts.

We will be in T1 for a week from this fri onwards.
Seriously not looking forward coz i dun know a single shit about T1.
Will be roving more instead of giving directions bah..

After On the Job Training(OJT), we will be going solo.
But it means no more the arranged shift, morning & 2 afternoons.
Might have to work back to back, meaning night shift today and morning shift the next day.
I reached home around 1am and have to be prepared by 5am plus for work.
4 hours to bathe and sleep?!
Wth?
Joanne and i were thinking of staying in airport overnight.
Stay in ops room,
Shower in the Transit hotel,
sleep in ops room couch or oasis lounge.
Besides showering, the rest is free and i juz have to pay for 8 plus for that.
How pathetic.

And going solo means,
there will be times where i had to eat alone.
No partner for lunch or dinner..
Juz like that time i worked in Aries.
I'm alr prepared for the worst.

I wished to see the japanese guy again.

People

2007-09-14T14:55:00.000-07:00

Lovely!
Congratulations, you are the first to view this entry.
This blog is not open to everyone,
only to my loves ones.

I'd talk about certain stuffs which are more personal
And i'll pinpoint exactly who i'm talking about.
No guessing,
straight to the point.
Isn't this better?

Alright.

Actually, i'm not looking forward to my work nowadays.
Though all my team members are mates from TRM,
sometimes we get along well and sometimes not so..
On and Off.

Lavanya is nice.
She's considerate and sensitive.
Infact, she's better than certain group of mates from tr03.
Maybe is because of me being in tr01,
I dont really click well with ade and group.
Most of the times, they leave me alone.
If not for cass, i'd really be alone.
Seems like they dont give a damn about me.

Yes, they might asked and express their concern
But it is the action that matters.
'How's jean ah?' some asked within their grp.
But when they see me around, only a few came up and tok to me.
And the next moment, they vanished.
Gone without a word.

Joanne is my other team mate.
Yes, the one from tr03.
As a classmate, shes okay.
But work mate, is different.
I find her super blunt and sometimes outright RUDE.
She acts like she knew everything.
Even to a friend, being straightfoward has its limit.
Few days back, i asked her about mastro or masetro regarding the credit card.
Cant remember exactly the term..
And she juz replied, 'Your sec sch never teach u meh?!'
'You mean u dont know?!'
i was like..WTH.
Cant you be more polite?
I was only asking..
'I slap your face den you know ah!'
That was wad she said.
You can imagine the rest..

She's nuts about kids too.
Everytime she saw one, she will go OOH and Ahh so cute.
To the extent that i hope no kids shall walk past her.
Felt like shouting in her face.
'Can you stop that?!'
I wished i said that.
HELLO, not all kids are cute afterall!
sometimes, they cried till u get frustrated.
Bet she knew all that..
So idiotic.
Worst, i'm sticked to her for most attachment.
Imf too..
I was with her at the same level.

Graham is my leader.
He is too obedient.
Unlike others, he always kept his vest on.
Telling us dont do this and that, dont wear this and that.
Besides the break time, he doesnt take much rest.
And we couldnt rest too..
So, we had to stand and walk all day.
But he's approachable, friendly and helpful.
However, he could be childish.
Felt like telling him that too.
And he always, always talk about his girlfriend.
To the point it become irritating.

He even said me and his gf were around the same height.
He said our feet were similar.
Once, i bite my nails and he said his gf did the same too.
Wad is this man..
Comparing me and his gf??
And i felt like, he's picking on me.
Maybe, i wasnt well liked or the popular ones.

Only Lav is nice.
She's 24 this yr.
Maybe she's older, thus more thoughtful.

Sorry folks, had to made u all to read this..
But i felt better getting them off my chest.
And i had work tm still..
Cant wait for going solo.
That means working alone at counters,
not as a team.
We will be going solo on 28th.
Team work is good when u need help.
But i prefer to be alone sometimes.
Even more so when i travel home on train.
I see her in work almost everyday,
I wouldnt want to on my way home.

But so far..
I like my shift arrangements.
work for 3 days and 1 day off.
1 morning and 2 afternoon shifts.
I get to rest every 3 days..
But i had to rush for first and last trains.
However, they extended the morning shift from 7 to 7.30am.
So we start work 30 mins later.
Its all because of huimian..
Coz she live far away.
But i dont mind either.
30 mins more of sleep..

By the way, do leave a comment after reading the entries.
So i know you are here..
And i do value my loved ones and their views.